in 2 weeks time. (part TWO)

this is continuation of last post...part TWO...

after annual camp...THIS IS WHERE THE FUN BEGINS!!

it's SUKIPTTTT 2014 !!!!

i couldn't join it, and not layak pon nak join it with my current condition...WHY?

i had no team, i didn't go for any training and so on...no fitness, no technique and etc etc etc...what did i do? i watch the opening ceremony on RTM1 and crying inside. *xbole jadi ni...xkan nak sedih sensorang tgk member2 melambai2 kt dlm tv tuu..aku ade situ last year...bkn sbb terer sgt pon dpt msuk dlu...tapi seronok dpt turut serta dlm acara mcm tu..kalah pon seronok, apetah lagi jikalau menang kan? *

so i've decided to join as a supporter...mmg dah plan dari awal nak pergi pon, tapi smpi betol2 JADI pergi ntah bape kali aku re-planning, hampir 4x in 3days time...semuanya utk make sure ada jalan yg lurus utk pergi...*wooshhh woooshh*...in the end aku pergi naik kete ngan jac, kak zu, and alep... (member dari team UTM)...my ex-team member..but in life mmg tetap member selamanya la kannnn...

dorg amik kt tol aitam hari jumaat pagi tu...walopon janji pkl 9 tapi dtg pkl 11, kami tetap teruskan perjalanan dgn excited dan gelak ketawa berpanjangan sepanjang perjalanan dari johor ke shah alam...

smpi je DATC, sume dah semi-finals..tpi dpt la jugak nk tgkkk...TAHNIAH kpd pemenang...kami pon beronggeng la mlm tu ...ade pulak MAHARAJALAWAK MEGA FINALS, mlm tu pegi la mencari kedai yg bkk MLMfinals tuu...aku xlayan sgt...tpi bole je nak tengok...pusing2 sume bola, but at last dpt gak satu kedai yg bkk siap psg screen...tgk smpi habis...cume 1st time minum laici byr rm3 cup kecik..takpelah, dorg service okay..walopon air tu sama je rasanya...

on 2nd day ktrg siap2 gak la pagi2 sbb ade DUA org team dlm team utm yg lawan...smgt gak nk pi sokong...dtg awal...ade gak mmber2 dari team lain yg dikenali ade kt situ...dpt la bertegur sapa since da lama tak ketemu....rindu pon terubat...mlm tu lepak bertiga je ngan adibah sbb ktrg duk apartment dia spjg kt shah alam...ktrg mkn kat MR. Sambal...sedap gak ar mknn situ...

on 3rd day..semua gerak awal pagi sbb mmber lawan pagi...pastu pi tgk archery and mse nak balik tu babai la kat semua kwn2 dari team lain skali...sedih nak tinggalkan tmpt tu..tapi sedih yg bermakna...aku pulang dgn motivasi mendalam kali ni...i couldn't express it here..let my azam be with me until i achieve it !! *considering to join a new TEAM...will try my best to be recruited *

lunch ramai2 mse tu kat BARRA restaurant....sume order nasi goreng ayam BARRA...yg lawaknya part2 cik kak yg ayu yg tak habis mkn tapi mgdap muka dak2 laki yg mcm piranna tggu dorg punya nasi tuu...HAHA...agak feymesh la gak restoran ni kedai melayu tpi style n design mcm kedai mamak...mkn sedap and murah dan berbaloi2...pastu aku naik train pi rawang to my sis's house..

smpi rawang klong blnje mcd..mlm tu mkn mcm2 kt uma dia smbil tgk movie..

on 4th day...ikut klong pi putrajaya..sbb nak tgk rumah sewa sementara dia kt seri kembangan...nnti dah tahu jalan senang la skit nak pegi ngn family mmber's yg lain...oleh sbb kerana dia pi putrajaya nak kije aritu..aku xkan nk ikut dia kan? aku pon pi la berjalan...plan lain tpi buat lain plak...aku pi jumpa my BESTFRIEND!!! IJAAA ~~ !! lama gila tak jumpa ija sejak dia kije kt kL..huhuu...so happy for her now, dgn hidup baru dia she's learning to live by herself...sgt berdikari dia sekarang...im very very happy for her...wish her success and kesabaran berpanjangan...yelahh..hidup di KL sgt challenging okeyyy...sape yg pena kije or duk sana je bole memahami...spent a day with her mmg sgt bermakna and such a lovely day i had on that day... ^___________^

on 5th day..sepatotnya klau ikut plan dah balik rumah da...namun aku ditakdirkan utk pi jumpe sorang lagi member mase tu utk tolong dia siapkan pogrem utk bisnes dia nama dia asfa...kenal dia dulu mcm miracle sket..*buat2 gaya drama sikit*  tapi she's one of the successful person with great personality to be friend with...pastu ikut dia pi opis dia la dulu sbb nk siapkan kije, then pi alamanda jap, round2 kl then dia hantar balik pi TBS...tak dpt nak berbual2 and lepak2 mkn ngan dia sbb dtg time hari bekerja, so dpt bual2 ape yg sempat jelaaa...but still FUN and good enough to spend time with my her mase tuuu...thanks asfa sbb bw jalan2. :)

aku sgt bersyukur dgn famili yg aku ada, rakan2 yg sgt versatile dari pelbagai latar belakang juga...semua yg dihadirkan dlm diri kita adalah ujian, adalah nasihat dan pengajaran utk kita teruskan hidup..semua yg berlaku bersebab...sama ada secara insaniah, fizikal, berita, angin, pasir, bernyawa atau tidak..think wider, concern more and you'll see and get better perspective through your own lens (melalui mata, dan mata hati juga) . . 

i feel blessful with my life, thanks to ALLAH SWT cuz presented me with this kind of life...alhamdulillah ya Allah, kau telah kurniakan aku hidup yg sangat bermakna, sekelilingku yg sangat cantik dgn penghuni2 di bumi mu ya Allah...kau bantulah hambamu ini utk sentiasa kekal di jalanmu, sentiasa tetapkan hatinya hanya pada mu dan sentiasa berjihad dgn namamu...aminnnnnnnn ya robbal alamin... (^_________^)

**i din like to post picture and video and so on on my blog...so it's a bit bored to read it...nak tgk gmbr? kat fb adalah klau ditakdirkan rajin utk adakan... ^___^

in 2 weeks time. (part ONE)

assalamualaikummmm....

12 feb 2014, that means 3days more to the new semester..

what have i done in this holiday?

nak cite le nii..

secara average dan lumpsum ktrg cuti sbulan lebih..

tpi sbb habis paper awal ktrg cuti sbln LEBIH LEBIH laaa... :DD

i got annual camp for my koko subject...around 2 weeks la jugak..excited gak.
randomly calculate cuti ni... 1mggu spent time ngn family, 2mggu kem, 1mggu spent time ngn family lagi, 1mggu berjalan2... = ]

after exam aritu dlm 9hb trus je balik uma, mlm tu trus pi jb sbb my brother's mapa inlaw nak dtg johor..

so i drive with my dad at that night to JB sblm they arrive..seronok da hbis exam mmbuatkan driving mlm tu xmngantok sgt..gitu gini gitu gini i did update my status on FACEBOOK about my journey in 5days...

after that 5 days journey, i came back to college for the annual camp..on that day my roomates and housemate mostly dah balik and prepare nak balik...i hate saying goodbye and didn't say goodbye properly to them all...just a basic goodbye mcm nak blik kmpg biasa je...

so bout the camp, basically we learn all the theories needed at markas je around 10 days la lbih kurg...then 4 hari dlm hutan, 1 day utk kemas brg smula msuk stor...dlm kem tersebut mmg belajar mcm2..disiplin, kawad, yg paling best ilmu tahan ngantukk..perghh..mmg la aku tak slalu mgantuk..tpi dugaan nk menuntut ilmu ni BESARRR...mcm2 pon bole jadi...get back to niat and the future pon ley buat sedar diri sikit laa...haha. *seriousnyaa??! rilek arrr ...kan muda lagii* hahaha..yeppp..mse muda la nak kena jaga betol2..

seronok la jugak dpt training palapes yg real sikit utk sem satu...even though i din think it's enough for us, but it's good for a START...dlm hutan is the beginning ! tapi tak hutan sgt la...sawit kot. but still such great experience i had on that place...i learn how to be a leader, how to be a follower, how to be the one who could contribute to others as well as yourself....such a great knowledge i've gained! nak btao semua tak terkata but for the first time in life :

1.  aku kena gali kubu (dlm paras betis la dlmnya, dan panjang ikut diri sendiri) - mase ni laaa...sape yg       rendah mmg beruntung.. :DD

2.  24hours pkai spike boot and uniform tuu...- mase ni kasut tu mmg perkara utama la..klau tak pkai rasa tak selamat.. 

3.  pakai webbing set and bw senapang kemana jua even nak tido..peluk kuat kuat laa... - mase ni la aku tido smpi berbirat tgn sbb lilit tali sling snapang tu kt tgn biar tak terlepas...(klau terlepas kena curi! kena curi kenalah denda!)

4.  belajar MENEMBAK! PERGHHH...mmg styleee. first time blajar menembak...mmg TERUJA! 

5.  belajar menerima kekurangan dan kelebihan org lain...yg kurg kita bantu, yg lebih kita jadikan motivasi, yg tak baik kita tanam tepi sawit jela..!! XD

after kem...rasa taf sikit, my family pon kate cmtu...even i did feel it myself...mgkin bole nmpk kot..tpi yg paling bole nmpk dah GELAP arr...walopon mmg dah sedia maklum gelap, tapi ni tmbh lagi ton gelap tuu..tpi gelap je..bkn salah ponn...tak dosa ponn..yg penting dpt ilmu yg bermanfaat, pengalaman yg terbaik, motivasi berpanjangan ! ! ! may Allah always be with me with my journey in PALAPES life till i graduate...aminnnnnnnnnnnn. #LEFTENANMUDAWANNABE ! ^_^

"WE ARE READY TO SACRIFICE !! " - PALAPES BATCH 10 UTHM -

REPLY .

waalaikummusalam ...

- thanks for the copyrighted stamp! 

- life is beautiful journey, YES i agree..but u need beautiful character to fills that journey to have a beautiful history and may imagine how your future will be ..

- aku mmg suka if i could call everyone in my own special way..their own gelaran, or the nickname that i gave them, it's comfortable..and the best is AKU n KAU...there's no difference in age, styles, character..selesa nak bergurau senda dan sebagainya. unlike english, everything can be settled with I and YOU. easy huh? 

-your impression towards miss A, yep i agree.

-your impression towards ME, im not that tall, yes at least taller than both of you, *gelak gelak*

-your impression towards yourself ..im not agree with pelik..the rest okay okay.. :)

- start your day with doa bangun tido and end your day with doa nak tido la. zzzZZ.

-you said you play guitar, you perform..i think i could learn something from you since im new in this field, but i played for my FUN, and if you enjoyed it i would say thank you, and if you don't im very sorry.

-haha..this one im a bit terkezut lah..u said u left it at home, dah letak at ruang tamu tpi lupa nak bwk..

-bout the missed call, i din remember im sorry.but yes i did give you a missed call..since we're separated at that time isn't it? i got ur number from miss A lah of course.

-owhh..majlis penutup, im seriously forgot how i could see the whole performance, what i remember we three , dpt tgk kat dlm dewan duk sebaris. thanks for reminding me this memory . :)

- im not that sibuk..im always alone in that room waiting for you guys coming home since i got kelas sikit je..ciss. tpi rileks ar..men game, movies..and so on.

-im the one who sent that request or you did? i din remember again, dah tua, igt baki duit dlm poket pon tidak.. but i did rememba that i wanna be ur FB friend too..

- that quotes " Friendship doubles my joys and divides my sorrow" was the 1st title of my blog, but i've changed it to "berusaha sebelum kalah" now. :)

- BIRTHDAY. that not so important to me..but i appreciate for those who remember it..u can wish it for a year..no matter..even my best friend forgot to wish my bday..so what's the problem? the bond still there..it won't break cuz of one date. rite?? i donno others. but that's my opinion bout bday. :)

- that choc, even me suprised with it..thanks for the pemberi..and thanks for your wish in this book.. :)

- cuti mid sem ..aku tak igt aku buat apa, tapi aku agak busy sendiri..aku ada teringat pasal korg tpi tak tahu nk ckp ape kt korang.. nk pegang fon pon xberapa sempat rasanya.. *that me, klau cuti mgalahkan YB.

- owhh..the quotes there, change it to "family first, then the rest"..you start your life with a family, and end it with bigger family, they will be the one who pray for you and your life present and after... be good to them even they don't understand you...ask again did i understand all of em? :)

- at that time, i din know u wrote that name in your blog, klau tak bole letak nama yg commercial lagi..bout the camp, i tot you goin for qiamullail kat masjid, rupenya camp sispa, haha..maap lerrr..but im also shocked bout the handshaking part..

- im not sure where am i at that time, but the sms that you sent, i did read and reply , tpi npon ni jeles plak tak nak hantarkan..so babun isn't it..bila perasan tak jadi sent dah..da lepas takpela kan?im sorry if you wait for me to reply it.

- i didn't think my existence will affect you..haha..im sorry.. :)

- i do understand your emotion..i really did. :)

- don't afraid to be silly, it's fun sometimes...it's much more better than crying. :)

- this one, im impressed with your arts, lawa betol buat design google tu..tpi lagi lawa klau tab dlm tu di isi dgn pkataan lain..u din have to push yourself, join clubs and activities..that will SERIOUSLY HELP you..with experience, wisdom and knowledge, you will be a friendly person. tak paham? takpe. :)

- i've never thought of  you as an annoying person , so don't you do it again...just let you be YOU. but don't judge you as YOU...and don't think what others think of you..i'll give you quotes at the end of this post. ********

-i told you bout a rumet before, we din talk much but we understand each other privacy..sometimes, words couldn't explain, and silent is a better translator. cewahhh..

- yepp.."don't take someone's silence as his prode" ..say it to yourself too.. don't think too much bout others thinks..they may not have you in their mind at all..but you were here in my mind. :) 

- nature conservation test la..sbb ade dak klas bi mohon excuse nk pi test tu gak...and as always, u didn't text what you feel..control macho. :DD

-im sorry for breaking my words, i said i'll come home but i didn't .

-bout you being a messenger, the words miss and love, i couldn't express it very well im sorry..im not saying it, doesn't means i didn't feeling it. <3 nbsp="" p="">

- im always happy when you texted me... i can help you burn that air conditioner. :)

- hahaha..bout the song..you knew it wouldn't be that easy rite?? thanks for requesting it even you have to pay with your own song 1st.. XD XD XD **please record it . i'd appreciate if i could to listen to it again. :)

- rezeki lebih kena kongsi..i LOVED that YEOS yoghurt..tpi tak tahu you'll loved it too..haha..ada kimia la kot.. :)

- i did looked at ur team along the morning..im searching fer you...and found you mse inspection..too bad tak dpt bergambo kt pdg kawad tuu.. T_________T, tup tup jumpe kat dewan... * flowerly flowerly heart *

- hahaha...ur face din show u were looking fer me..haha..i din too i guess..yepp may Allah granted our wish to be LEFTENAN MUDA...aminnn

- we didn't expected that result...but Alhamdulilah..i think it's biased...but im so sorry becoz im still happy with the result.. :)

- housemet kita baik ar...takpaya takut sgt...xsiap assemet copy je mmber..ohh..cute is always you..xpaya buat muka. :)

- nape la xckp mse tu da pna pi backpack..ley tye byk soalan sket..be BRAVE ! ohh..you mmg berani ponn..sory sory..

- bgun di siang hari?? dah terbiasa dah...seriously. klau rasa xley angkat badan tu cari air minum dlm satu botol kecik tu for activating you organ. 

- you eat those snacks or not? cuz i had a friend who couldn't eat snacks..im afraid that you were like that friend of mine..so do tell me keyh? :)

- BREEZE? hahahaha..kau yg slalu bsuh baju dlm tu kau yg tak pasan..? aiyaa.

- im a bit excited to bring to cakes to college..tup tup you weren't there..a bit dissapointed lahh..tpi nak buat cmno..bukan rezeki kau kot..

- " a journey is best measured in friends, NOT IN MILES" ...tak muat nak letak another 3 words..kelam kabut buat ...hope you like it. :)

- len kali klau tak sure tu jerit je tapi pandang tempat lain...i'll sure toleh ngan org lain skali..suara mcm chord? did you listen to others using notes ? HAHAHA. =PP

- aku igt kau da tidoo..tup tup ade msj..nk reply pon xtahu nk reply..nk ckp mcm gaya dah tidur..so aku reply dlm hati..and harap ia sampai melalui telepathy.. :)

-aku main game kat luar...tgk2 dah pkl 4,  tu kejut tu....blajo pogemin mlm tu..kwn aku bgi soalan cepumasss punyaaa...rupenye soalan tak habis..hadoiii.. = ="

- aku pon tekejut psal jar of heart tuu...tetibe kau bersuara...aku igt kau tak dgr dah ... 

- kalau kau nak tahu pasal incident kipas tu aku tahu sbb miss A da cerita dari sinopsis smpi kesimpulan..kesian kauu..aku rasa ade hikmah aku xda dlm bilik tu..klau tak tido mkn habuk kipas agaknya..kesian kauuu..and i sincerely kesian kat korang berdua mse tuu..tu tlg ikat kipas tu.. :)

**bout your coretan im a bit shocked..thanks thanks and many many thanks to you. instead of touching im so HAPPY for this present..thanks for the memories..thanks for the quotes book and hlovate books..xpena lagi la ada org bgi quotes book like this to me..you are the FIRST...you did stalk my blog? which blog..haha..abaikan jela blog blog tersebut..klau rindu cakaplah, kalau rindu beritahu jelah, klau nak jumpe pon you know what to do..and if you feel lonely and nak pinjam gitar or whatsoeva beritahu..insya-Allah if i have time for backpacking i'll contact you..and i do have different ways to do my backpacking..HEHE. :)

your quotes book ada part two tak? i would like to buy it. HEEEEE... <3 nbsp="" p="">

kat sini aku nak minta maaf for all misunderstanding, interrupting your privacy, memekak tengah2 kau study and everything that will consider me to say sorry to you im so sorry...i wish you a blessful life, successful journey, and fun-filled memory...smile is better than cry, pray when you're about to cry...and cry when you feel heavy, smile again after you feel relieved. :)

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. - Steve Jobs - #bebravetobeBRAVE"

kehidupan di tempat baru.

alhamdulillah ada masa nak buat post ni time line laju-laju bagai ninja kawasaki...

ok, where to start? hmm..OH!

college life :

-i got a new roomate, TWO of em. 

-smaller, smarter , faculty FKAAS.

1st impression : 

-miss A, from poli, excel in her poli, talkative, anak bongsu, rajin nak melawa ,dia perna kata aku suka study..xtao la dia igt ke x.. lain-lain? lain kali la post. :))

-miss E, haha dari A trus E, bole la ..lepasan matrik, excel in her matric too, diam-diam ubi berisi, musician, mgkin ley jadi cikgu bahasa, budak bijak..

campus life :

-new faculty FSKTM. mne2 pon sama gak nama fakulti ni

-ade 5 course, aku sncomp web-tech.

-kosmet ade la 80+ org.

-sbjek sem1, 6 tpi transfer jadi 5 sbjek je..final exam 4 je.. HAHAHAHA! XD

new life : 

- i can say i am happy.

- i've change my perspective of life in new lenses.

- i've change my activities in here.

- i'm trying to do what i haven't or couldn't do in my old campus life.

- im searching for my purpose of life in here.

- mananging my future.

- indoor to outdoor life. from sport to palapes. really exciting huh?!  YES!

that's all..tata ~

tempat baru yg tak baru sangat. :)

Assalamualaikum..salam tahun baru, salam maulidur rasul..

lama tak tulis sini..now i am a UTHM no gakusei desu. (skrg sy pelajar UTHM).

berhijrah la sudah dari kuala lumpur ke batu pahat..

at first im a bit KECIWA la with the upu result..harap sgt nak masuk UTM, namun rezeki di UTHM..

dpt sms dari upu tu dia taip UTHM rasa tak percaya, tgk 2 3 kali kot kot silap taip ke..

kenapa ada 'H' ??! mse tu perasaan gembira sbb dpt smbg, namun sedih sbb ade 'H' tersebut..

utk tenangkan hati aku pon berazam bhw 'H' tersebut mmbawa maksud HIKMAH. insya-Allah setiap yg terjadi ada hikmah disebaliknya..aku pon teruskan kemas mgemas dgn perasaan pelbagai nak pi daftar..aku berharap bhw disini aku dpt menggapai ilmu yg bermanfaat, berguna dan dpt berjihad dijalan Allah, aku juga tak lupa utk berharap bhw aku dpt roomate dan coursemate yg beriman dan dpt membimbing aku ke arah kejayaan.

yg hectic nya..aku register kolej 1st sept 2013, akk aku nikah 30 aug 2013, mjlis 31st aug 2013..

aku sbgi org rewang yg pling busy ni mmg xsmpt la uruskan diri sendiri nk rege kolej tuu...muahaha..

mlm tu je tido da pkul 2 ke 3 pgi...tido kejap jela sng katanya..pastuu! bgun2 subuh bru nak check smula borang2 ckup ke tak..secara tak BEST nya..ada plak borg hilang..dari nak gerak pkl 7, pkl 9 baru kuar dri rumah..ohh..nak btau UTHm ngn uma aku ni 15-20 mins je. =P

dah smpi jln luar kolej tu mmg jem lekat mcm jem tat nenas dlm kuali ar kan..aku dan umi berjalan kaki dari luar smpi ke kolej tersebut..aku pon sebok la dok compare2 kolej bru ni ngn yg lama..registration system xbgus la ape la..sebok dok ngompare la before and present mse tu..dlm hati tu tak ikhlas lagi nak terima..pdhl nak register dah ni..aku pon cube tenangkan hati terima seadanya apa yg aku dpt..susah betol nak pujuk diri sendiri ni..namun tetap cube bersyukur n pikir org lain ade yg xdpt msuk U, aku sibuk compare2 universiti...time time bratur tu tak tahu le pulak mse tu la dijodohkan dgn roomate..means, bratur je mne2, sapa dpt line sama tu tu la rumet korang..aku pon nmpk la ade 2 org dpn aku..kecik je..tak sangka la pulak mse tu dorg tu akn jadi roomate aku..aku pon xbape nk tgk la muka dorg..bila tgk buku nk amik kunci tuu, HAHAHA. ade 3 space, 2 da ada isi, so aku la lagi satu punya space nak tulis nama, SAH. yg kecik 2 org tu tadi rumet baru aku..tpi aku tgk2 keliling xnmpk dah..

follow jela rege punya line tu..igt kan ley habis rege sehari..rupenye smbg esok plak utk fakulti..mse tu mgeluh la jugak sbb da penat..namun follow jela.. :)

kenapa aku cite pasal hal lama sedangkan da hbis exam pon??saja utk tak lupa memori yg aku telah lalui 5 bulan lepas. :)

expressing .

salam..hai..hello..wassup??

heee..hmm..i'm bored now, so i decided to write a new post. tetibe teringat ade blog ni.

expressing gonna be today's title. since i was a kid, i have problem with expressing my feelings. feelings? what? love? no its not about love. it's feelings. random feelings. when you hurt or happy or anything. i realize i did suppressed everything inside me, to myself, hmmm..no no not everything, you could say almost everything. i didn't know how to share my story. i guess i have problem in trusting people or maybe i'm afraid hearing people's opinion about me? or if im being judged? i'm not sure. but i guess it's not about trust. but, it din lasted long, at a certain age i managed to release , expressing my emotion bit by bit to my surroundings. i felt weird with myself. why i couldn't express my own feelings like others did?? im wondering and i still do now. 

sadly,in 1st semester in university, i trusted a wrong person and somehow it affecting my new life. i can called it new life right? new age, new surrounding whatsoever. my old stiff stone personality tried to iced my heart again . luckily, i started seeing things differently thanks to surroundings. i saw many people, i see changes in people, i see so much fun in life, i heard stories. like many many stories. and i decided that im gonna be much stronger. i tried to be much better observer, of myself . 

this upgrading version mission works. i gained friends from all around states, even foreigner. i'm happy to be the new ME oppps, i could say the upgraded version of ME instead of the word new since i didn't change completely to be a diferent person. BUT, i do have problem in hugging people(perempuan la kan, takkan laki2 kot?so pahamkan sendiri). if i did hugged you, u must means a lot to me or u could say i trusted you or i just feel comfortable with you being around me. don't make any weird conclusion okay?? 

i still have some unchanged personality that i had since before which i loves making friends. i can communicate with my friends better now even the old one. here, i had to say my apologies towards my friends if i did hurt any of you guys feelings, i hope u could understand, or could try to understand my actions towards you you and you or u didn't have to at all bout what im sayin in here. why bother rightttt? nahhh. pffft. HAHA. see ya. i miss you guys. ^_^

aku fed-up

salam..

today's entry berperasaan sikit..aku annoyed with somebody. 

aku tak paham mcm mne ade org bole pikir yg dunia ni hari-hari berlaku pasal dia seorang saje..org lain ade hidup jugakk..bukan dia sorg je..jgn kusutkan mslh org lain dlm diri sndri lepas tu perasan yg org lain being "judgemental" towards them. hoi tolonglah. manusia ni hari hari ade problem.saja nak share mne tahu dpt pendapat..janganlah buat kitorang mcm ni. kau ada mslh ngan orang A, jangan libatkan orang B,C,D,E..etc. things somehow doesn't relates with each other at all !! orang ni buat aku jadi daripada tak terpikir jadi serba salah tao. dia selalu buat org jadi mcm ni. aku tak pasti dia sengaja atau tak perasan. but this happened!! aku tak suke..*sape tak paham jgn tanya..mmg aku merepek*

here aku cume nak paste ape yg aku tuit tuit tadi supaya aku tak lupa yg arini aku marah....

-susah betol jumpe org suka putar belit cakap org lain. lain yg org maksud lain yg dia definisikan.

-nak biar boleh. tak biar pon boleh. as for now i just wanna see

- the fact people commenting using their own judgement.this world doesn't concerns only YOU !more than 20billion human population lives here.

-i did live through that stage..but life not done yet. it can happen again if me deserve that test for this life.

-my way..u can never understand it because u see me through ur "judgemental and prejudice" glasses.. i din hate u. i pity u. im sorry.

-we live in a way. not in YOU ruling our way.

-people like us being abused socially by people like you who can't accept that WE can do better than u did .

-i seriously mad . i didn't hate u. i hate this mentality of yours. hope u could see my point. not my "putar belit by others" point.

-we live with others past.we learned, we changed, we adapt then we believe that we can be better than them which happen to did those mistakes. we tried and we moved.

-i hate this irritating feelings. i don't like me having this feelings. plus tonite was a good day in islamic history.

-u ruin everything. everytime. we didn't. u did. u did. u did ! yesss... it's from you !

-luckily i didn't curse people. alhamdulillah. at least i can still keep my temper.

-when i'm mad. i will membebel in english. i didn't know where was it came from. it just happens. sorri for any errors. din realize. sorri..

the most obvious . u can never see people did better than you because u thought urself was the best in everything !!!!

-aku komen tanak jawab.aku cakap kang trus nti sentap. seb baik kau takda twitter aku. klau tak perang dunia agaknyaaa? cari gaduh plak.

-aku susah nak gadoh dengan orang .sebab aku tak suka konflik. tapi ade plak manusia suka timbulkan masalah dalam ketenangan manusia yg lain!

-aaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! gerammnyeee akuuuu !!!!! tak suke tak suke tak suke.

-u creating the non-exist world saying we hates+not fair to u.

-what WE see is,u saw urself from ur past and u're judging urself then blame it to US that never thinks of something like this towards u.

-we have our own life.we didn't live talking, thinking,judging YOU.SAY NO MORE bout this.

-we knew too much but we kept in silence to keep ur pride til now.don't let anyting came out of nowhere. PLEASE. im begging you.

- FINAL . i wish u could read this. but i'm not strong enough to see the implication. if u do read this please judge in bigger perspective. tq

learning in 21st life ... :D

salam and good morning....

semua sihat?? haha. *bajet famous.

kali ni update sikit la pasal life ni..dah lama tak update igt blogger dah buang dari list google dah. 

tapi ade lagi account ni utk di lihat2 dan di imbas kembali kisah dulu kalaaa.. :D :D

btw, now dah habis diploma, currently waiting for my convocation sambil2 buat part time job di utmkl...heee.panjang pulak rezeki dgn utm .. alhamdulillahhh..semoga dipanjang jodoh ke utm skudai pulak.. aminnn..sesiapa yg baca blog ni bole tlg doakan skali yee.. Insya-Allah..smgt kuat lagi nak smbung degree ni. 

hmmm..skrg ni kerja mcm dah malas pulak, risau gak, job tak submit2, walopon bos tak tanya tapi stil rasa guilty sndri..gpun klau kije tak siap tak dpt duit ni..pokai la nak mkn nanti..byr sewa lagi..hmmmm...tapi takpe, mse ni la nak belajar berdikari..walaupun ada cita2 tinggi dan harapan poket tebal, tpi belajar susah dulu..betol tak?? klau tak mesti aku sombong nanti. *mintak2 tak laa* 

alhamdulillah...skrg da pandai main gitar sikit2..smpi skrg ni ada la dkt 8bulan belajar..klau belajar dari dulu mesti dah bole join band ..*berangan* ... tapi seronok la, dpt kurg tension skit, fun pon ada...dpt belajar benda baru..bosan2 bole main kan?? kdg2 mmbe dtg lepak bilik lagi best karok mcm harem sama2..heee..

sports life still on. photography life mcm mkin pudar je. mybe tak continue dah kott...it costing too much money. ! HEEEE.. gpun klau bole nk join aktiviti yg xbyk ngadap laptop sgt...sbb skrg vision mcm low skit..so nk tgk bumi hijau sbyk mungkin...korang pon sama jugakk..jgn nk online je 24jam..

okay la ..post ni je arini.. tata. have fun tuesday !! ^_^

i never thought . .

one person
can have lots of character.

i'd love to see if they could bring a GOOD character.
i wonder whether it was a sincere one.

i hate to see imposters.
one who pretended to be good.
having bad intention masked by the GOOD character.

i hope you out there can be someone honest.
at least honest to urself.

if you're bad..say it.
being bad is not really bad.
if you got a will to change
others can help you to become a better person..
much good person.

if you're think you good.
never show off.
never say you're a good person.

because people have eyes.
they can judge.
they can see things that YOU couldn't.
sometimes,
surrounding have better eyes than us in case of judging YOURSELF.
.
never turn others down.
never badmouthed others.

you may not have a PERFECT life.
but you can gain happiness in ur life.

NEVER BE A JOKER.
be honest. be sincere. dare to be who you are !


*I HATE YOU JOKER !!!*

tukar pendirian ??

assalam

nak cerita..
aku ni slalu kate. 

"klau amik gmbr suka yg original..tak main la edit2 ni.. "
tapi ayat ni nmpk FAKE gila kan? :P
HAHA..mane taknye. ckp suke yg ori
tapi crack sane crack sini.. hee. 

hmm.. dulu aku mmg tak suke org edit2 gmbr. 

actually TAK RETI pon nak edit2.

tapi aku suke tgk org design2 ni sume..

yela, nak design takan pkai kamera kot..

kena la edit pkai software..
baru la CANTIK dan BERGAYA !!

tapi zaman skrg ni.. even slr pon da kurg org guna.

aku sendiri pon ta pasti bole gune slr ke tak.

aku rasa pkai dslr sndri pon da kira tak ori.. hurmmm 

tapi klau ada peluang guna SLR 
mmg nak sangattttttttttttttt tahu dan belajar.

korg ada x kenal sesape yg pandai dan baik hati 
nak ajar for FREE ??!

klau ada kenal sila btao kat aku ! *sgt teruja*

aku rasa nak belajar editing betol2.

cume aku ni tak kreatif. 

nak tiru org rasa mcm MENIRU plak. *nama pon tiru*

yela nak create sendiri aku ni takdela HEBAT sgt pon... 

tpi still..nak cube yg termampu.

nak belajar. tapi takut. 

hmm..tpi klau takut bila nak pandai ?

klau ada gmbr ori tak bole jual..

bek duk uma bce komik.  

*tak de kaitannnn lahh weiii*

wish me LUCK dlm belajar edit dan mgambil gambar !!

adioss~

hmm..simple je. tapi nak buat simple pon tak reti.

wahhh.. yg ni ade api-api bagai. cmne nak buat??

yg ni cantikkk...
cmne dia bole tepikir nak letak rumput sume??

im a FACEBOOKWORM !

assalam..

sekarang minggu final !!
exam start 5 Oktober 2011
exam habis 16 Oktober 2011
doakan kejayaan aku utk exam kali ni..
FACEBOOK. cabaran terbesar !!
hope utk SUCCESS GEMILANG SEM 5 !!

doakan kejayaan SHAHMIM ini. aminnn. ~:)

igt semua NOTA !!!

JANGAN berangan dalam DEWAN EXAM !!

 PASTU INILAH HASILNYA.
aku suka yg tengah2 je !! <3

25th ,,,

Finally ,
25th September 2011  

H.A.P.P.Y.2.0.T.H.B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y !!! 

just for YOU my  STAR.

wish u a GREAT and LOVELY birthday!!

keep your shining SMILE  ..

never FORGET that ..

-shah110-

mggu akhir kuliah..

assalam. 

today 19 sept 2011. 

ade class math 10.30am...

dgn berat hati nak bgun..

asyik snooze je alarm dri pkul 9..smpi la pkul 10am..

dgn kepayahan mmbuka kelopak mata..

musykil dgn kelakuan rumet yg tak pegi klas lagi..

even jam da pkul 10..

“mgkin dia tga tggu mmbe kot..jap lagi keluar la tu.. “

Lalu dgn berat kaki,mata,badan...

menuju mncapai towel utk mandi..

after mndi siap2 bbju kurung merah...

mengambil anak tudung utk dipakai..

maka tergerak hati bertanya rumet...

SS : "kelas math pkul berapa?"

M: "12.30pm."

SS: "laaaa...nape tak btao??"

M: "laa...igt mim dpt msg..*tegelak kecil

SS: "aduhh..klau tao mmg tak bgun tidonye.."

M: " . . . . ."

SS: "takpela..pegi jela kampus ..ley online"

setibanya di kampus..

*hp bbunyi*

11.00am

C: "…..ktne bole byr duit gmbr kelas?”

 SS: “2min lagi jmpe di dk7 ye..”

C:”ok ok..”

SS: mgambil hp and create SMS ”anda dimana..?”

C:”studio ***** “

SS: “bole x dtg dk7 ni?”

C:”bole bole..sye otw.”

11.30am

menekan butang call di hp..

SS: “dik bole dtg ke x? akk ade kerja lain ni..”

C: “jap kak..jap. sye otw.”

SS: tak pasal2 kaki aku cramp diri lama2... adoii~

mcm ni la org kita..susa nak tepati masa.. 

mcm aku la..pegi kelas pon lambat..

haisshhh..

segalanya semakin kurang...........

assalam..
semuanya kurang...??
apa yg kurg? ??

sejak aku msuk ipta, rasa mcm kehilangan.
tapi biasa la perubahan level kehidupan, kena la accept.
smkin aku senior..smkin rasa jauh dgn kwn2 sekolah aku.
mse awal2 habis skola dulu slalu jgk lepak sme2 ngan dorg..
tpi smkin lama smkin KURANG.
kwn2 ajak kluar..tpi ade je hal yg dtg.
kdg2 clash ngan famili program..kdg2 mmg aku mmg tak bole kluar..
kdg2 tu.. sbb tak da fulus. yela student biasa cam aku mne ade kewangan tetap.
harapkan PTPTN pon utk byr yuran sem..
aku nak borak2 lepak sama2 ngan membe sekolah lama..
aku rasa mesti dorg kecik ati ngan aku sbb asik tolak ajakan dorg ...
yela nak cuti bkn la senang. dorg pon gi ipta gak..
tak mudah jgk nak cuti..bila dorg ajak ngan ikhlas. susa nak menolak..
namun itu la yg aku buat. aku consider famili dulu.. kdg2 mmberontak gak tak dpt keluar..
tapi apakan daya.. FAMILY FIRST ! ...
hmm.. mmg aku patot consider once again bila dorg ajak kluar lagi lepas ni..
since semester 1 aku di ipta.. aku tak kluar ngan kwn2 lama lagi..
mcm lupa kawan. mmg contact di FB. tpi FB hanyalah virtual kan..
real life is still important. to create better bond to each other.
MAAF KAWAN2. lepas ni aku nak join korg keluar. !!

tpi bukan ini je yg nak cerita.
smkin aku senior semakin aku KURANG semangar belajar.
mgkin sbb basic aku utk programming ni tak kuat.
pertukaran semester pon tak byk membantu aku utk improve diri.
mgkin sbb aku sndri mls nak usaha .. yela kejayaan bkn dtg bergolek.
bila ada masa lapang..aku pon KURANG study..
lebih byk bazir masa ngan aktiviti persatuan dan kelab..
mgkin aku patot kurg aktif.. aku patot spend lebih masa utk belajar.
yela itu la tujuan parents aku hantar ke ipta..
klau aku tak berjaya..kesian kat abah.
buat habis duit dia je hantar aku jauh2..
tapi aku mmg nak BERJAYA habiskan diploma dgn KELAS PERTAMA.
mcm akak n abg aku.. dorg berjaya!
yaa.. aku patot azamkan diri ini.. !! doakan saya lebih bersemangat ye..!!

cume aku ni .. semakin KURANG ketahanan diri .
utk melawan segala cabaran yg aku hadapi. ( malas, movie, traning, facebook..etc etc)
kdg2 sambil lewa je lecturer bgi assment.
bkn tak nak buat. bkn tak tahu nak buat.
tapi saje saje buat buat tak tahu buat.
sebab ape?? sbb aku da mcm lost track utk cita-cita aku.

aku tak pasti arah tuju aku lepas diploma.
although aku dapat kelas pertama diploma pun..
aku tak pikir aku akn teruskan Degree dgn kos yg sama. 
mgkin sbb ni la aku tak bole focus dgn kerjaya student aku..
sbb aku mmg tak de matlamat yg TEPAT.

dan yg pasti aku KURANG fulus.. HAHA.
yela duit raya pon da habis ni.
asik pegi potostet buku je.
bace malas gak.
time ujian je guna.
kan bagus klau bole sewa2 buku.
tak payah potostet. sewa satu sem.
abis final bole pulang.
namun itu hanyalah IMAGINASI.

im ended this post here...

YA ALLAH, kau bantulah hambamu ini untuk
LEBIH berjaya,
LEBIH semangat,
LEBIH keyakinan,
LEBIH rajin,
LEBIH usaha,
LEBIH menyenangkan org lain,
LEBIH terbuka,
LEBIH penyayang,
LEBIH rezeki~~ ,
LEBIH LEBIH LEBIH bertaqwa kepadamu.. aminnnnn. aminnnn.. aminnnnnn!!

LONE RANGER

assalam.
post kali ni nak cerita sket.
pernah x hidup ngan kwn2 yg x hargai kita ?
kdg2 dorg cari kita bila susa je...
bila senang dia tolak kite ke tepi..
bila kita susah tak tahu org x nmpk kita..
bila kite menyerlah..ramai plak org sekeliling..

hmm..as for me. slalu sgt jadi cmni.
so mcm dah x heran sgt. mmg la pathetic sket..
tpi better settle things sendiri dari harapkan org lain..
yela..manusia ni bole berubah2. kite x bole expect ape yg akn terjadi in the future..
so kite mesti slalu ada backup plan !! yeahhh !

post kali ni mmg sinis sket bgi yg terasa...
mmg la cakap tu lebih mudah dari melakukan..
namun lebih baik cakap perkara yg mampu badan kita sendiri lakukan dari hanya tahu berbicara...
paham x ?? x paham takpe. pandai2 la teka. :)

STARS

The Star Has 5 Sides,

1 Is Ur Smile,

2 Is Ur Charm,

3 Is Ur Looks,

4 Is Ur Intelligence,

5 Is Ur Friendship,

Thanks For Being My STAR…

second time ke sabah.. :D

Assalamualaikum.

Today nak share about last week. Aku pergi MOHE-UMS International Taekwondo Fiesta di sabah. Total 5 hari bermastautin di sana. Seronok giler pi sabah. Dah le dpt sponsor. Dpt tgk org luar lagi. Ramai gak contestant kali ni. 1^st time dpt msuk International Taekwondo tonamen. Sgt sgt teruja sebenarnya walaopon byk kna tinggal kelaas. * seronok x dtg klas sbenonya* .. dpt la kenal bberpa org luar. peserta luar yg dijemput menyertai tonamen ni ialah Thailand, Vietnam, Philipphines, Indonesia.. and for  the 1^st time in my lifeee..!! AKU LAWAN ORG JAKARTA…!! dan KALAH. HAHAHA. Org x training mcm aku mane la nak menang. Tu pon ley kate mng free gak la.nak amik hadiah pon segan since mcm x layak je nak menang tu. but alhamdulillah x balik tgn kosong. kena muhasabah dir ni. ade hikmah disebalik smua yg berlaku kan. *wink!

Klu ikut perancangan 1-3 july tarikh pelawanan. Namun secara nasib baiknya..HAHA. 2^nd july sume match habis.mlm tu UMS buat dinner utk contestant. Memang meriah. Mmg terbaeeekkk!!! Sume pserta menari2 mngikut rentak lagu-lagu rakyat sabah. Aku pon bru la nmpkthe beautiful of Malaysian culture. Walaupon aku da 20 tahun duduk di Malaysia. Aku baru sedar dan mahu mengambil tahu akan etnik2 dan budaya masyarakat pulau borneo iaitu kwsn sabah n Sarawak.dorg ni sgt unik dan sporting la wa cakp !! x sombong. Budi bahasa pon not bad. Cume kna paham2 la dorg ni byk etnik.x ramai Islam mcm di semenanjung. Jadi jaga tutur kata anda. HEHE.

 So 3^rd july UMS bawak sume peserta yg dtg jalan2. 1^st dorg turunkan di Filipino market. Pastu jalan la sndri.  1^st ktorg ni (bdk tkd) pergi Filipino market.byk gak la cari souvenier dan mutiaraaaa~~ (utk family la) ..pastu cari keychain utk member2 baik dan proboscis toy utk my STAR. NASEB baik JUMPA!! Tinggal satu plak tu. Tpi x dpt yg besar. Sedih betol. =( but I hope dia happy nanti. Yg malangnya bile nak balik ke semenanjung. Jmpe plak yg besor kat airport. Tpi paham2 la kan harge melonjak ke langit. Haha. Takpela, yg penting ikhlas kan. :D

ok mse nak balik flight aku delayed 2jam disebabkan hujan lebat. pastu smpi senai hmpir jam 10pm. smpi tmn sri puteri dpt bus plak 10.30pm ke KL. turun plak kat pudu . igt pudu tu mcm TBS idup 24h. rupenya...???!! siyes seram time smpi n trus cari taxi. n duit aku abes kering kat taxi. grrr... takpela yg penting da selamat smpi ke destinasi yg dituju dan mulakan hidup yang BUSY TANPA REHAT semula. 

(^^)